don't stop, make it pop

Monday, August 17, 2009 @ 2:20 AM

Had terrible headaches yesterday.
I just freakingly couldn't stand it, the pressure.
Ugh, i thought if i ate some ice cream it would cure unfortunately it didn't work out as i thought it would.

Whats much more to my dismay was how complacent i was, i shouldn't have let my guards down.
Gosh, and i thought today when i walked into the Exam hall i wouldn't do the same silly mistakes that i made in P1.

Tears rolled down, while i was doing my P2.
I've never felt so stressful, hopeless and most of all defeated by bunch of numbers.
Damn, feeling frustrated and disappointed with myself.

Hmm..
To make the situation worse, after handing up my papers i realized i forgot to bring my Prelim art.
But... I remembered rolling my drawing block and placing it on the desk.
Ah.. horrified.
I rushed home, before that i was reprimanded by ... for my seriousness in art.
Wooah, distressed already!

Then,
Stella jie's words reminded me something.

The heart and the mind are the two areas that create worry. It's wrong thinking and wrong feeling about circumstances, people and things...

Worry never climbed a hill.
Worry never paid a bill.
Worry never dried a tear.
Worry never calmed a fear.
Worry never darned a heel.
Worry never cooked a meal.
Worry never led a horse to water.
Worry never done a thing you'd think it ought to.

when there is turmoil churning around you, don't fret.

"God does not always heal us instantly the way we think. He is not a jack-in-the-box God. But God is walking with me through this."

Thelma Wells

Ugh, it is such a bad way to start my week.